I found this, thought I'd share it with you.
http://s44.photobucket.com/albums/f33/AngelicVampyress/Kids/?action=view¤t=PICT0107_068.flv
It's tuxie...in the early days.
Still no sign or word from her...*sigh*

This is Tuxie, my daughter. I love her so much.
She's been missing from the house since tuesday ( a day after I left for vacation) :(

Came home today...still in no sight.

This is really tearing me apart. I've had her for 7 years, now.
Please pray she's still alive.

Sarah

Hello everyone or anyone who reads this.^_^

I need to ask of anyone who is willing to get one (1) hour massage from me.....THe catch? It's free....Seriously.
I'd like to keep the gift of massage, and in order to do so I need to keep up with it- this is where you may come in.
THe massage is free until I gain my liscence, which is in another 2 months.
SO, with anyone interested AT ALL (even just for the shoulders, arms, feet, etc) please contact me. I would really love the experience and I'm sure you'd greatly appreciate that one hour of relaxation away from life.
Remember, you can have 2 months (one massage a week if prefered) of a free massage each time.
This is a great opportunity for you to take time to spoil yourself without having to burn a hole in your pocket.
Msg me if interested in the slightest.

FYI:
I have a table, sheets, lotion and oil, music. If you have preferences(such as type of oil or location for massage), please let me know.
Full body massage is my routine but can adjust just to one area of focus.
Non-sexual- I do this for therapeutic purposes, not sexual.

p.s if you also have any questions, please don't hesitate to ask.^_^

P.S.S. This only applies to those on the mtn, unless you're willing to travel up here. Please remember that I'm still a full time student and worker- travel can't be an option until after May 13.The best time to schedule for me? plz ask. Thanx!

Every Christmas passes by
and I wonder of the accomplishments,
the learning, and the experiences I've come to.

Christmas isn't the time of gifts,
twinkling lights on your porch,
or the ornaments on the tree
you might have chopped down or put together (the fake ones).

Giving gifts are much more sweeter
than it is to receive.
Why?
The joy that forms on a grateful face
is a priceless time, or
as others would say
a "Kodak moment".

Christmas is a time to reflect on a
precious gift given to us a long time ago:
the Birth of Jesus Christ.
Within this gift from God, Himself,
we are taught "it is better to give, than receive"
I stand on that saying because I love giving.
I'd rather please someone else's wishes
than my own....their reaction and gratitude
gives me a sense of peace within my heart.

One of the greatest gifts God has bestowed upon me
would be friends.
They are there to help you, when you can't depend
on your family in situations.
To listen when you need to be heard;
To hug when it's asked;
To laugh, even if it's just you and them.
To hold your hair so you don't singe it
when lighting a cigarette, or when you're
loosing your lunch.
To enjoy life and it's priceless times
when you didn't have to do much to do something.
To lend and borrow money because
faith and trust is shared with the unique
connection between you and them.

I'm thankful for my friends, willing to listen,
laugh, cry, wrestle, and smile when times called for it.
I promise, as I have to them, that
being loyal to them and honest is important to me
Also, that it will never change...
no matter how stubborn I am.

For Christmas, I have all I need-
Even as my family abandoned me.
Being truly blessed is a rare gift,
For I can count on ONE HAND all my friends
and companions I need for this life...
I love you all, You know who you are..

You're my gifts under my tree...

Happy Christmas!

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Hate. colin emailing me
Hate. FINALS. to be vanquished and replaced with pizza parties! (or something similar):)
Hate. FUCK WALMART.>:[
Smiles!. merry christmas! (I need your address to mail you your gifts!)
Smiles. :) I miss you all so much

Hello to the only people reading this
*hugs* to you both! I'd love to hear from you for or around Christmas!
This is what is going on...
Wed, Nov 30- Hypnosis presentation and turn in term paper for Alt. Medicine class. (counts for 50% of my grade-25 verbal, 25 written)
Lucky for me, I have so much information and technicalities (spell check) that it's AT LEAST 5 pgs long, NO double spacing, either. ^_^
That's the longest term paper I've ever researched on.
Dec 1st is all makeup work for my classes. *sigh*
I'm going for the experience (giving massages at school to fellow students) Finals are in ONE week.
Fri, Dec 2-music concert (final)
Mon, Dec 5-Anatomy and Physiology I-written test
Tue, Dec 6-Applied Theraputic Massage-hands on test
Wed, Dec 7-Alternative Medicine-written test
Then, ...well, I don't know what happens after that day.
School ends on Dec 18th, officially.....
then I don't have school until the 17th of Jan. *happy dance* yays!
MMMMM...k
I think I just popped too many blood vessels in my brain for the night.
Hope you all had a decent Thanksgiving!
Until my next Posting,
Sarah

Well, my bf better LOVE me to DEATH for it.
As a early christmas present, I bought him and Xbox 360...Premium Package/ With my extra christmas discount, I only paid $346 instead of $435. *with taxes..

I stood in line for 3 (count'em...3!) hours, to get it.
One hour to "wait fore a piece of paper" signifying that at the time of payment, I am able to get an Xbox 360....even though the ticket (and associates at the store) there, said itself that is wasn't a sure thing to get it.
*that is only because if you walked away with the ticket, you wouldn't get it because you didn't STAY for the other two hours.
Once I got home, I set it on his bed....so that when he got off work..it'd be the first thing to see.
His reaction was like a girl getting the pony she's always wanted...
only, that's the analogy. ^_^
He keeps giving me hugs and "thank you's" all over the house...while i"m cleaning...what a goofball. Though, I am happy that he's grateful.
*thinks back of the first time boyfriend MENTIONED Xbox 360 and shutters*
Boy, did he NEVER..EVER stop talking about it...and I know he won't now. *giggles*
I love him though...*sigh*

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With me?
School is ok...getting ready for finals and my "Hipnosis" report...
just can't find the time between sleep, school and work. AAARRRGGGG!
I'll get it done...besides a little bit of pressure does well on last minute things...j/k
Work is getting busy, blitz is on Thursday and I have to be in at 8pm - 6:30am that night. *big sigh*..You know? I'm not really looking forward to it, but then my tuition for next semester comes to mind and I feel confident I'll have enough to pay for college-not only for the overtime & holiday pay from this thurs, but from 3 1/2 hours from Sunday night.

Well, I hafta clean, company coming soo and need to buy lots of food to stuff their faces with. Love and Blessings from God...to ALL

Until my next posting,

*big sigh*
Well, if life didn't throw curve-balls, I guess some humans will never learn.
To be honest, I'm a mess. So much time into school and work, that I barely have time to take care of daily chores. *giggles a bit* Kinda sad, eh? ...after all *thinks to self*, I did choose to be a full time student and full time worker.
That's just one thing though...
I've been undergoing a lot of physical-chemical imbalances ( "flu" type thing, and stomach flu), and now my skin is the thing now. :( i may have had acne, but I've fought it since I was a teen, but this time...this problem is serious skin infection.(I'd rather not say due to my human nature.)*sigh* I guess it's my fault...still debating whether I picked it up at work (no doubt) or anywhere else for that matter.
It's called Impetigo. WebMD will explain if you look it up. Due to this condition, I've decided it'd be best if I stay home, rather than spread it at work ( can't miss school though...I need to get my degree somehow. Though I am asked not to participate in "hands-on" labs, it's understandable. *remember? I'm in school to be a Theraputic Massage Practioner*...
So, I've talked with my work, and they said I can use sick time (they pay me for this) so that I can use it to heal, and not let this very contaminant condition get around associates (more than 500 people) and customers (who knows what # that is).
It feels wierd to be home, when I usually work on this day. Oh, I'll be out for a week or so, but I won't loose money because sick time covers me on that.
*smirks* I guess I am a work-a-holic, like my family....meh.
Anywho, gotta catch up on homework..have 2 exams next week (Mon & Wed) and a paper to write (Tue). Thanks for reading....
Pray for me..plz.

Okay, I KNOW college is expensive, but that still doesn't stop the shock of the cost of everything, when it all adds up.

Classes: Overview of Alternative Medicine
Massage Techniques
Applied Theraputic Massage
General Review Math
Band (Jazz, Stage, and Concert)

Tuition of Classes: $374.00 ($150 scholarship deducted already)
[ not to bad, expected worse]

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Books: Complementary & Alternative Medicine
Fundamentals of Theraputic Massage
Trail Guide to the Body
Structure & Function of the Body
Clinical Massage Therapy
[ still need math book ]
Total Book tuition: $337 ...
[ enter shock look and shaking hand when handing over credit card!]
Well, pray for me...I appriciate all that do.

I'm off to save Mula!

until my next posting
AngelicVampyress

I have a website now..still in progress, but if you want to check out the "beginnings" of it...go for it.

http://sovereignofdarkness.bravehost.com/

Silent_Rei

oh, and if you want to know some ideas of what to buy me for christmas..
I like emily the strange and Nightmare before Christmas merchandise along with black cats, fishnet, corsets (spell check) and so on...
www.fuckthemainstream.com

this site has everything that i will enjoy, but no pink, please.
Toodles

SARAH
S	is for	Stunning
A	is for	Arty
R	is for	Revolutionary
A	is for	Astounding
H	is for	Humorous

okay, when I looked my name up is said this...not what's above:
S Slippery
A Ambitious
R Radical
A Alluring
H Hardworking

This one is more accurate because I am slippery..I'm a klutz. Alluring? Um...no..but that's pretty funny. :)
Well, I gave it a try...to make myself feel better, at least. (refer to sovereignofdarkness.bravejournal.com/)

Hey y'all...I found a better web journal.
here it is if you check it out....I'll be putting all my old postings on it too.

SovereignofDarkness.bravejournal.com/
Thanx...leave a post on the left of my page....cool?

L8r!

Silent Rei

So many times..
I wonder and sit alone
"What if I took this path?
Would I be in a better position?"
Then I remind myself, if I changed certain things
in my past...I wouldn't be the person
I am today...
Stronger in heart
Wiser in mind.
Learning to love life
even with the bad that comes
Besides, you really can't appriciate
the good with out the
bad times to go through.
*Sigh*
Sometimes it's really hard to
get through the curve balls that
life just keeps throwing.
But, you know...it sure does know
the exact time to throw them too.
*Smirks*
You know? One of my enemies gave me the
best advice..too bad he doesn't follow it.
"Life is what you make out of it"
I try...(key word there) to keep my own advice:
"Life is full of choices"


2 B Continued....

Dude, it's getting wierd in my house.
We keep playing "musical rooms"....except everyone excells in size when going on to the next room...BUT...this will be the last time. (Darn it! I wanted the Master bedroom *snaps* Shucks!) Meh...
Right now...it's being painted black (well, it's really dark grey but close enough?) and it'll be cool. I'm gonna see if I can pain white checkerboard around my door,plugs, and window. *grins*...
I couldn't sleep....the fumes were getting in my "dreams" and making disturbing images and feelings. Meh...Hope fully IL'll fall back to sleep.
I miss hearing from my friend Doug...I hope he's ok. Last I spoke with him, he said he was getting some alcohol...*worried..for a sec*. meh...I just wish I could make him laugh again. Oh My gosh! I was so thrilled to hear from Maryse. I had a RUSh of relief just hearing her voice. Gee golly gosh, I miss her. And I hope she'll be ok...as much as Robert..*hopes*
Grr. I want my pc to work. I'm at the library right now...my pc really got hit hard with Spyware...arg! *evil look due to stupid pc at home* *ahem*
I'd be a lot happier if I could chat with people again. *sigh of frustration*
All I do is clean the house and it does get boring after some time, scrubbing the same corners over, and over, and over, and over!...hmmm.
Well, gotta jet...I'll be back in a couple of days....unless I can get my pc to work *fingers crossed*

Dear Jesus,

Father, first I want to thank you so much for being a loyal friend, teacher and comforter. Just words can never hold the full meaning of my gratitude for this and more. Alright, down to the point:
God, I'm not sure how to go about the situation with Jim and Vanessa. I'm really stressing out, and feel like I don't know what to do....except turn to You. *sigh* I haven't lied since things between me and Maryse happened. I still feel shameful for such. One thing I do know is that You don't remember when You are asked for forgiveness....that's good to know. I've been really going through a lot of trials, being as honest and a real friend to anyone.
Lord, Vanessa is assuming and making accusations that hurt on my part. I did my best when talking to Rocky this morning by not talking shit about someone. I don't want to be a hypricrite. (Spell check, but you get the just of it, right?)

I know Jim likes me and he shows it to be obvious more than a friend. I honestly, don't want another relationship, unless You are fully in it. I've learned from my past and mistakes on this. God, I wanna pray for Vanessa right now, I may not know what struggles or battles she's in right now, but God, please help her in any way possible. I don't like it when people are mad at me and I don't know what I did. ...well, I honestly didn't know hanging out with a friend (that is male) is a crime. People that assume get themselves in a lot of trouble, with themselves and others. That's why I ask questions....to get the story or information correct. *sigh*

Father, I also pray for strength, serenity, courage, and most of all...wisdom. I need your guidance always, but especially now. My personal goal with people?
to inform them of my true nature of never wanting to hurt anyone for any reason, and also know that I'm not a bad person....as my enemies claim to have something against me (I still don't know what I did), when I'm just trying to be a loyal believer in You and show life is more than this fallen world shows....that there is happiness and real peace that can be possible.
*sigh* God, I'm trusting You FULLY on this... I'm gonna continue praying and reading on this Jesus...for I know you will help me and be by my side.

Thank You, for all the blessings You've bestowed upon me and not letting me regret ANYTHING in life with You.

In God's precious son's name,

Amen.

WOW...was work scary or what last night. Phew. Okay, I usually start out in stocking Crapts (Crafts Dept....my word for it). Well, surprizingly I got it done within the first 4 hours of work. Man, did that ever shock me. I never get done with anything until one hour before work is over with. *sigh* So, beign that I had nothing better to do the rest of the night, I went to my original work area: Garden Center. I loved it in the past for a lot of reasons: I worked in the corner, isolated from everyone else. I do better with out distractions and others around. This way the job gets done. But being Garden Center also carries the seasonal section....I got to play in the Halloween and Christmas shit. It was SOOO much fun! :D Cardboard boxes flying through the air ( for those who don't know, we get everything from trucks, in cardboard boxes), plastic all over the ground and a bunny ear head piece was placed on my head, as entertainment...for me. I lOVE Halloween. Lots of reasons to love it...cant' really find the words right now to explain it. Oh, I'm trying to be Barbie this year, any suggestions on costume set-up? Hmm

Blah I slept all day and I'm STILL tired, I'm heading to my room to do homework. Lots of work to do for school. Music wise, that is.

Silent_Rei